jagxoff vol. I

boxhead and i are babysitting tonight and after we put my brother to bed we decided to smoke a little which made us giggle a little which made us hungry a little...which also made us steal my stepdads television out of his room into mine....and the dvd player from the living room as well.
so i think we are doing pretty well for ourselves.
my room is now my den.

{a drawing im working on...}

all the while, benjamin is currently burning the 7th dvd of porn from his computer.

unproductive productivity

i got out the sewing machine to zip up some uni work i have due in a couple of days for textiles and instead i decided to do this:

such a loser.

she wears my blood

telling big secrets of mine seems scarier to do to closest friends than it does to strangers. i just told one of the biggest to one of the loves of my life and i feel physically ill.
now that i've got that out, here are some things that i love:

# gaps in traffic.

# free entry to anything.

# speedy replies to messages.

# escaping rbt's, DUI or no.

# finishing a sudoku, and having another to do straight after.

# perfume on clothes from the night before.

list to be updated. feeling like shit and thought that making an i-like list would make me feel better, but its not, so i'm gonna sleep away the demons.

can i just say

i love you photobooth.

ben and norah.

so this is what we went with and i'm not 100% keen on it but whatevz. clients are too fussy and i'm not fussed enough.

troublesome week. scared to go to my classes tomorrow. pretty certain my graphics teacher is going to eat me and my computers tutor is going to zap my face off.
thank youuuuu doctors certificate.
i'm sick of always being behind and i need some definite pointers on how to keep motivated. i'm coming to that scary plateau that so many of my friends have told me about where you don't know where you're going in life and if it has any meaning to what you're doing / WHAT IS THE POINT OF IT ALL.
i'm not going to be drawing forever. hell, i don't even know if i want to be.
i wish i could turn pocket lint into gold.

good friends of mine are fighting. it isn't nice and i don't like it and i hope it stops soon cos as strong as i pretend to be about these things, i'm never as supported as i come off.
some advice that i gave a friend of mine who is in the exact same position as me (that is, right in the middle of it all):
1. you're not having to choose between the two
2. no one has the right to make you do that
3. if they wanna confide in you, sure why not - you're still their best friend. just keep it to yourself.
4. if there's drama to be had, do the opposite and maybe it'll die down quicker.
too many people i know are drama-driven these days. i had hoped we had left that all behind in 8th grade.

meanwhile, i've found the best timezone game around (other than mario kart of course). LET'S GO JUNGLE. it's in an actual shape of a jeep that you climb in and there's guns in there that you and a partner shoot spiders and shit with. thing is, the two characters in it are a boy and a girl and after every level, it totals up your compatability rate.
so obviously i played it today with the boy and our first rating was 75% compatability and the caption was "more than just friends, but not quite lovers."
mad douche chill.
our second rating was only 20something % and the caption was even worse. so upsetting that i don't even remember it.
totally questioning the relationship now haha.

oh hellooooooo. seems let's go jungle is not only google-famous, but youtube famous.
sup wikipedia: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Let%27s_Go_Jungle!:_Lost_on_the_Island_of_Spice

mad nerdgasm.

weekend wars

this weekend was time well spent with good people.
oliver is back from lismore for a couple of days and i couldn't be happier. he nearly persuaded me to take his copy of color of night home. fuck yeah softcore porn ft. bruce willis. touch yourself.
messy fun times with the girls on saturday night.

acquaintances becoming friends is always nice. i'm appreciating learning more about people than just keeping them at a safe distance. i've always been so comfortable with the people i love the most, that i forget that there are others out there who are also worth getting to know.
on that note, i am also appreciating the reasons why those held closest to my heart are there. kate my old friend, i love you.

today i woke up hungover and hot, this weather isn't working with me on so many levels.
(my tanned driving arm is making a comeback. the one-tanned-arm look isn't so fashion.)
hence why i've been irritable all day.
little annoyances have been pulling at me all day and i'm at breaking point with myself and people around me. i have this bad habit of taking things i have let pent up in me out on unbeknownst others. (sorry.)

that said, i'm learning to keep my mouth shut. thank you stephanie for starting up a blog again.

one thing i have learnt over the past couple of days is that there are a few people i know quite well (so i think i have the right to say this on many accounts) that are ridiculously hypocritical and if i could list names, i would, just so you could fucking wake up to yourself. hopelessly vague but it isn't possible/appropriate to list details.
i say it out of love and i'm sick of seeing a couple of you in strife that you and only you have placed yourself in.
i know i would appreciate it if you said the same to me on the appropriate occasion.

fingers crossed the next couple of days are productive. i'm going insane and rapidly doubting any skills i may have possessed/skills i may have bluffed my way through having.

a little preview of a print i drew and am screenprinting this week!

we're not in wonderland anymore, alice.

i've started this again.
bad habits. web logging.
have a few jobs to do so i decided the best way to avoid them was to invest my typing time into something a little less productive.
this is what i'm working on at the moment.
not so sure where i'm going with it.
hope i find out by thursday since i have to deliver it then.
fuck.

ps. the ho! team are djing once again at snatch&grab, a new lesbian night club starting out at phoenix.
a very exciting prospect. not actually a lesbian but looking forward to the night nonetheless.

feeling awkwardly unemotional for blog times right now. not too sure whether investing inner thoughts into a computer screen is the most therapeutic resource at hand. but it will have to do. for later.